quiet cool breeze

Quiet cool breeze
moved up stairwell
calming rushing chaotic mind.

feet away carnage ensued
Cointreau fuelled "hee's te us!"
music pounding,
driving,
the violent wrestling of merry friends

he stayed away
yet still hearing
still witness to the festivities
and the over taken thinking of
"some day"

he sat waiting
to be anywhere but here
any time but now
no good byes
no farewells
no end
no closure
no cessation of the self inflicted pain
devouring the last four months

she was leaving
he had sent her.